Friday, December 10, 2010

Connection


somtimes, i don't really feel connected in a circle with friends like i want to be.i don't realy feel close to people and i get upset. so,say i have one awesome friend and she/he and i are as close as can be without being creepy.when they bring another friend along,they start talking about a HUGE something that you know nothing about and then you can't say anything because you can't relate to what they're talking about at all.



i just lately have been feeling like i've been inside a bubble. i can see everyone outside and i can even sometimes touch the outside,but then i'm thrown backwards and i can still see the other side,but i can't get to it. you know what i mean? i can touch the outside,feel connected to people for only moments and then the feeling of connection is gone. i mean,i'm still happy and warm but the feeling of....i guess the feel of connection itself is what i'm missing.i alwasy feel under pressure like i have to look for something, i feel hungry for something more,a bigger point of view,something i can see beyond the frames of my glasses,beyond my bubble.




song of the day:Shake Up Christmas by Train