lately,i've been having a lot of ups and downs. some days i'm so happy i feel like i can conquer the world and others i feel so deep down in the pits that i may never come back up :(

some days i need a giant bear hug but no one there to give me the kind i need. i need a dad but as far as i am concerned i don't really have one,not one that is there for me anyways.

i am not doing drugs,not smoking,in fact im healthier than ever right now. i just have to think,have to believe that tomorrow is a better day and it's a new chance for me to wake up and smile :) and in fact i will,i will smile when i wake up as if i like getting out of a warm bed in the cold winter months,i will make tomorrow as good as it was meant to be,i will get good scores on tests at school,i will,i will,i will with all my heart and soul and every fiber of my being :)